a little too late

ever feel like you met someone a little too late?

i think i did.

she's getting married in a month or so. not that it really matters, i don't think we would have been friends like that.

i'm just sorry i didn't meet her before.

oh, i knew her. knew her name at least. we went to high school together. but we never really talked back then. never got to know each other. and i miss that. i miss that we didn't ever hang out. she seems like she would have been a lot of fun. i miss the spontaneous road trips we might have taken together, just because. i miss all the memories that we don't have. i miss that we never stayed out too late together, talking, doing nothing in particular, just because we liked the company. she would have been that kind of friend.

i guess this is about preconceived notions more than anything else. she didn't seem the type of person i would like to spend time with. so i never put any effort into getting to know her. i'm sorry about it, but who do i apologize to? it's too late now.

in the last month or so i've gotten to know her more than i did in four years of high school. and she's a rad kid. and she's leaving. getting married. that's leaving for good. i'm sure he's cool, i'm sure he deserves her. and i'm not even jealous.

just sort of sad.